Music Questionnaire

1. Do you play an/several instrument(s)? If so, what Instrument(s) i used to play guitar and cello

2. Do you sing? If so, what style? i cannot sing
3. Do you beatbox? hell no!
4. Are you a DJ? nope
5. What do you think about Classical music? it has its moments
6. What do you think about Rock? favorite kind of music, mostly 80’s
7. What do you think about Pop? hate all of it, except a few 90’s songs
8. What do you think about Jazz? boring
9. What do you think about Alternative? i like alternative from the 90’s and early 00’s
10. What do you think about Electronic? may like a couple songs, other than that…Zzzz
11. What do you think about Metal? only like a few metal songs
12. What do you think about Rap? i dont like rap at all
13. Is there is a genre that I haven’t listed that you’d like to comment on? country! i like country.  I cant stand modern country though
14. What is your favorite genre? country, 80’s rock
15. Do you prefer older or newer music? older
16. Who is your favorite artist/band? Def Leppard
17. Is there a musician in particular you admire? Garth Brooks
18. What is your favorite song currently? don’t have one
19. Is there a song you find very special to you? bleeding love, Leona Lewis
20. What song would you most likely listen to if you are sad? To be, Dearest, most songs from Ayumi Hamasaki
21. Are you mutable when it comes to your music interests? No
22. What was your favorite genre a long time ago? Has it changed since? 00’s Alternative, kinda changed
23. Can you read musical notes? no
24. Do you wish you could play an instrument? If so, which one? maybe the violin
25. Do you wish you could sing? If so, what style? I’d rather play an instrument
26. Is there a certain genre that annoys you? modern music ( ALL OF IT )
27. Do you sing in the shower? no
28. Do you even like music? yes
29. How often do you listen to music? close to everyday 
30. Is music very important to you? yes
31. What is your least favorite instrument? bass, don’t know why
32. Who is your least favorite artist/band? currently Nirvana and Red hot chili peppers.  Only cause i hear them on the radio all the fuckin time!
33. Do people (in general) think you have a weird/bad taste in music? my wife does
34. Do you think the people around you have weird/bad taste? my wife does LOL
35. Are you picky when it comes to liking music? i’d say so
36. What do you think about mainstream music today? garbage, all garbage
37. Are you in a band? (School band included) no
38. Are you in a Choir? no
39. Have you ever written/composed/created a song before? yes
40. Have you ever been to a/several concert(s)? If so, which concert(s)? Bad Religion, in Bakersfield CA, Staind in Tokyo
41. Are you listening to a song right now? If so, which song? no
42. Have you ever sung Karaoke before? yes
43. Have you ever been in a singing competition? no
44. Have you ever performed musically in front of an audience? yes
45. What would life be like for you without music? boring, perhaps non existent 

46. (Bonus question, you may choose to leave this one out) Do you like Dubstep?  slap yourself

Issues

I was raised in a normal life, both parents worked, sibling rivalry, and neighborhood friendships.  Life was good for years on years until the moment that I joined the Navy.  Now understand, I was born roman catholic, but I wasn’t always a church goer.  I have a Filipino mother, so I was raised to have manners and religion for the most part.  My father grew up in a religious family as well.  My brother on the other hand started having second thoughts about the existence of a holy power, and stuck to non believing and listened to Nine Inch Nails.  In the summer of 2004 I was 18 years old and joined the military, thinking its the right thing to do after what happened on September 11th 2001.  From July to September of 2004 I was in Naval basic training camp, and endured everything I pretty much expected out of boot camp, from the constant yelling, to the physical activities.

I received my orders to  USS Kitty Hawk CV-63, the last steam powered and forward deployed aircraft carrier based in Yokosuka, Japan.  I spent my first few hours on the ship getting constant threats and being literally tossed out of living spaces that I was told to go to.  I stayed up the fist couple days not having any orders on where to go or what to do, thinking it was natural.  A couple months later I went on my first deployment, and I was working as a traffic controller on the flight deck.  Being up there got me fearing for my life with the fact that it is dark as can be, and im just feet away from propellers and engines that can just suck me in, not only that but not being able to see the edge of the ship.  I prayed, but not often.  I prayed not to have  a job well done, but to just survive another day.  A few days later, I receive orders to another department on the ship.  Not even a week later, a mass casualty happens on the flight deck as a jet crashes and kills someone.  That someone was a traffic controller on the same shift that I was.  Was my prayers answered?

Let’s skip a year or so.  Im working as an aviation ordnanceman, bomb assembler.  The times that I am off the ship I don’t exactly act catholic.  I am already drinking twice my weight and starting to have a pretty mean attitude.  I would think that the lord would punish me by picking on me ( if you would say ), I feel like I would always get singled out and being the only one in my department getting in trouble.  I spent more time in the Navy being stuck on that ship in trouble, than enjoying myself.  I was in the Navy for 2 and a half years before I finally got time to go home, and mostly it was because I was ordered to.  I guess being stuck on a ship for so long gets a man thinking, ” this is my home”.. Slowly I noticed that I was starting not to care as much about others, what I would say to them or how I would treat them.  There was a time when I had to see a psychiatrist, AA meetings, and anger management, every week for about 6 months.  Little did my command know that I was becoming more furious about what they thought was treating me.

I was a very physical and verbal individual who always thought to myself, if I cant have fun, nobody can.  I would lose my mind when I would see friends get off the ship at foreign ports and come back staggering drunk from all the fun they had.  All the stories I would hear, how they smell like booze and bad decisions that everyday sailors made.  I was jealous and mad.  After enough times of getting into trouble and embarrassing the Navy, the captain of the ship gives me orders to get discharged from the Navy, generally, not honorably.  A few months later, I am in Washington state to get discharged, a month of being treated like someone who is getting a dishonorable discharge, being treated like I am in boot camp again, but worse.  The Navy really wanted me to feel like I wasn’t supposed to be there, and to acknowledge that I messed up. The day I finished the Navy, I had to throw away my uniform, and wait for a bus to take me out of the base.  The bus literally took me a block away from the base and dropped me off, in the middle of nowhere, in the pouring rain, flat broke and absolutely hung over.  My mother had to give me money for a plane ticket home.  I was so mad at myself and the Navy that I did not even tell my parents my flight number, so they waited for me almost a whole day at the airport.

The drive home from the airport takes close to 2 hours, and I told my parents that I want absolute silence during the drive, especially don’t want to hear anymore of my mom saying how proud she is of me.  The next full year was probably the worst for me.  I was showing up drunk to work and on a mission to make everyone’s lives a living hell.  I always felt better if I knew that someone else was having a more rough time than I.  Years later, I still sort of feel like that, not all the time.  I did manage to take care of a lot of my issues and learned how to control them.  I do still get mad very easily, and can still be verbally abusive at times but, I believe it is who I am now, it defied me, it molded me into someone that can hold my own.  I do regret a lot of things that I have done and said to people but that wont change that I have issues…

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